First Post of 2011

I would like to think that I am generally a happy person. It is just my surroundings or circumstances or environment that cause me to be less happy than I would like to be. But you know what, that is just the worst excuse I can even come up with for not doing anything to change my own situation. It's like an innate form of coping mechanism that I fill my pages with words of dark, deep meaning, hoping someone will get a hint that I am actually really fucked up. Thus, any form of discrepancies or if I am being a let-down, it is because I am built this way.

So much for my first post of the year. I am so gonna shut this down.